On Clothes

I’ve received the shipment of hoodies! I was led to believe the product came from South Korea and Pakistan, yet the package shipped from China. When doing business, I believe one should learn the languages of the people you buy from and sell to, so I’ve got some learning to do.

For the business, I’ll be shifting my focus to designing and screenprinting.

On Reading

I’ve finished the Autobiography of Malcolm X, and I am reading Weaving the Web by Tim Berners-Lee, the co-inventor of the World Wide Web. Beyond the tech jargon is a story about combatting hierarchal systems and the reckless pursuit of capital. Won’t say I’m at the edge of my seat, but I’m optimistic that I’ll have a new perspective when I finish the book.

On Life

The effects of social media on the human brain are immeasurable, but I believe the consequences of frequent use are negative. Doomscrolling is the default web browsing method. According to a 2021 survey by Common Sense Media, the average teen accumulates over 8 hours and 30 minutes of screen time each day. More recent surveys suggest the average, entertainment-based screen time for adults is ~7 hours and 30 minutes.

I strive to extend my attention span and otherwise revolutionize my relationship with social media. To manage my screen time, I bought a brick app blocker to strengthen my focus by minimizing the temptation of instant dopamine.

I’ve been uncharacteristically angry from accumulating stress without reasonable outlets. Doomscrolling on my phone does not help. When you don’t select your fate, someone will choose for you. I am frustrated that I’ve let employers, people’s perceptions, and social media tip the scales of my future.

Anger is a powerful tool I haven’t mastered.

When started this business, I didn’t grasp the sacrifice necessary for living in my purpose. More than anything, this endeavor highlights my unconquered fears, especially my fear of changing relationships and the fear of being seen as selfish.

I have a greater fear of dying without applying maximum effort toward my goals. I don’t do well as a cog in the machine of the status quo. I believe there’s a better way for human life to operate and I am determined to see this through.

People are often afraid to lead, without realizing we are the leaders of our lives.

Sometimes, you need your ego.

I’m not sure kindness always wins.

Until next time,

Apollo