unsure of myself.

my environment.

used.

afraid of the old me.

hating the way he comes back.

hating that he isn't gone.

hating that I have to keep him away.

afraid of being disowned.

afraid of being blind.

afraid so much of myself in the dark

hating that I can't see what others see in me.

afraid of being the bird box.

afraid of being the creature.

afraid I don't know the scent of danger.

afraid i won't know the scent of flowers..

afraid flowers will petal me.

afraid of being deaf

afraid of being oversensitive to feedback.

afraid of being undersensitive to critique.

afraid of being numb.

afraid my footprint won't match up to my blueprint, that I'll feel failure over and over.

afraid I won't be able to taste the fruit of my labor, sour or sweet.

afraid that i won't make my family tree green.

afraid all of my growth is for naught.

afraid no one will walk in my shoes.

afraid.

sure this is not the end.

sure I will be better tomorrow.

my future.